Thursday, November 17, 2016

Mommy tunnel


Several blogs I read refer to this phase I'm in, when your children are all small and unable to help you with household chores or taking care of one another, as the "mommy tunnel". Apparently better times will come when they entertain each other and play together, when they help clean and cook if you teach them well, etc.


Every now and then, I see that light at the end of the tunnel. But  tunnel is exactly what it feels like. Dark and crazy, like you're going to hit the sides or other cars. Like you need to turn on lights to see. Like everything is going a little too fast.

This selfie we took at the park eating icecream makes me look like I'm a fun mom who buys icecream. But really we had no food at home for a snack. I mean zero. No bread, no yogurt, no fruit, not even any cookies! I am trying to grocery shop online once a week, but sometimes I forget... or it gets postponed... or I forget to put something on the list.

I keep reminding myself of what Auntie Leila calls "the basics": food and clean clothes for you and your family. So I try to make sure I cook once a day, do laundry and grocery shop on time, even if the floors are dirty or I forgot to bathe the children again. But it feels like a juggling act. I have to be on top of the ball, because if I slack a little bit, it all spirals out of control.

Even though these times are crazy, I am sure they are the best. My kids are soooooo cute. Addie says the funniest things, Davy makes the sweetest noises and loves cuddling and my husband is the most playful father ever. So I try to put things into perspective.

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Day of the Dead altar / ofrenda


So, as the "holiday manager" in this household, I decided that we won't celebrate Halloween anymore, but we will celebrate the Day of the Dead. Halloween doesn't make any sense in Portugal... plus there's all that controversy about participating in evil, etc... but I find Day of the Dead such an interesting custom. I'm not Mexican, but I did grow up in California and I heard a lot about this in Spanish classes.

So I made a little altar or ofrenda in our prayer corner with pictures of a few of our loved ones that have passed away. And I ordered these books, which we really like and recommend, from Abebooks.com. Leeeeeeeet me talk to you about Abebooks. Have you heard of this site? I no longer order books from Amazon. Even if you order a large quantity of used books all from the same seller, they won't group the shipping costs into one. So even if you buy a lot of books at 1 cent each, you still have to pay three or four euros of shipping per book. But Abebooks, on the other hand, will group your shipping from the same seller into one. Plus you can search books just from the UK for example, which is what I do to avoid paying customs. It's great. And cheap. And this is not a sponsored post.

Anyway, I think that our modern-day society doesn't deal well with death or like talking about it. So I decided that celebrating the Day of the Dead in our house would be a great way to bring up the issue with kids, pray for our loved ones (the Church asks you to do that all of November...) and do it in a colorful, fun way.

I might have overdone it a little with the "death teaching" with my two-year-old. When we see dead birds, for example, I explain that they are dead to her. The other night we saw a boy in front of our house playing with a toy drone. The next morning she asked where he was and I said he wasn't there anymore. "Mommy, is he DEAD?" she asked me. Oops.

Monday, November 14, 2016

Trump Roundup

Do you want to hear about anything other than the election? I'm sorry, this post is not for you. Please move right along.

I had told myself I wouldn't post any more politics... but I can't help myself. I've been trying not to look at my facebook feed or watch the "news", because it makes me feel terrible. But reading what my favorite bloggers and writers have been saying makes me feel better. Here is a roundup of my favorite stuff so far.  

But before that, if you happen to have not voted for / dislike Trump, here's a meme for you:


Now onto other memes:



"The media didn't report this election, they actively campaigned it, and they are shocked that their candidate lost. Maybe if they go back to those much vaunted journalistic values, such as objectivity and integrity instead of pushing an agenda, they might be less "shocked" when things play out the way they were brewing all along." -- Marcy Bayard


Opinion: Dear anti-Trump protesters, this temper tantrum is truly embarrassing

The Electoral College Still Makes Sense Because We're Not a Democracy

What Donald Trump Wants To Do in His First 100 Days 

Why Trump Will Get My Vote

Any of the "Post-Election Edition" articles at Bigpulpit.com

And one in Portuguese: A vitória de Trump explicada às criancinhas


Video: Trump's Full Victory Speech

Video: https://www.facebook.com/bestoftrump/videos/1076130942480025/

Video: Song "Do you hear the people sing" from Les Miserable (I saw a post on FB saying this: "Throughout the election campaign here in the United States, I keep thinking of Les Miserables. Then, Hillary Clinton called Trump supporters "Deplorables" and that confirmed it for me. My mind went straight to Les Miserables the musical and I heard this song...."

Friday, November 11, 2016

Weekends

Addie got her hair cut this week. Davy smiles for the camera.

Yesterday I saw a conference given by a Spanish couple who have 18 kids, 15 living. Her name is Rosa Pich and she has a book here. One of my takeaways from the conference, other than there really is no natural explanation for all their sacrifice (just supernatural), was that you have to make time for your spouse, away from your kids. I already knew that you should put your spouse first, before your kids, but it has been more of a challenge now with a baby who doesn't sleep easily aaaand a toddler. Imagine with 15!

Last weekend I left the baby for the first time... for a mere two hours... and we had a coffee date. It was short but oh so worth it. Here's to hoping this weekend is as good as the last. Even though the house was constantly messy and we were tired, we went on the date, we ate yummy things (see picture of spanakopita + salad with feta + rasberries + wine), and we had our first ever family movie afternoon, complete with popcorn. We watched The Sound of Music. Ok, so the baby didn't cooperate much, the toddler sat still for about ten minutes... but us parents actually watched it.

Happy weekend to you!

Wednesday, November 09, 2016

Diary of Saint Faustina Quotes

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I've wanted to read the Diary of Saint Faustina for a long time and during the Year of Mercy was the perfect time. It is long and repetitive and hard to get through, but worth it. The first third of the book (about) I was having a really hard time getting into the book. Saint Faustina sounded like a massochistic psychopath and Jesus like a sadistic psychopath. Sorry, yes, it was freaking me out.

But then I don't know if the book changed or I changed, but I suddenly started loving it and it suddenly started making sense. Hmm, I guess that will forever remain a mystery. Here are some of my favorite quotes:


I saw Our Lady visiting the souls in Purgatory. The souls call her “The Star of the Sea.” She brings them refreshment. (20)

A confessor can help a soul a great deal, but he can also cause it a lot of harm. Oh, how careful confessors should be about the work of God’s grace in their penitents’ souls! (35)

Sufferings, adversities, humiliations, failures and suspicions that have come my way are splinters that keep alive the fire of my love for You, O Jesus. (57)

Suffering is a great grace; through suffering the soul becomes like the Savior; in suffering love becomes crystallized; the greater the suffering, the purer the love. (57)

And now when I hear people sometimes say that they have no confessor; that is to say, a director, fear takes hold of me, because I know very well how much harm I myself experienced when I did not have this help. It is so easy to go astray when one has no guide! (61)

I change hard work of yours into bouquets of most beautiful flowers, and their perfume rises up to My throne. (65)

I see that God never tries us beyond what we are able to suffer. Oh, I fear nothing; if God sends such great suffering to a soul. He upholds it with an even greater grace, although we are not aware of it. One act of trust at such moments gives greater glory to God than whole hours passed in prayer filled with consolations. (41)

It is not for the success of a work, but for the suffering that I give reward. (90)

When I receive Jesus in Holy Communion, I ask Him fervently to deign to heal my tongue so that I would offend neither God nor neighbor by it. I want my tongue to praise God without cease. Great are the faults committed by the tongue. The soul will not attain sanctity if it does not keep watch over its tongue. (46)

Sometimes we kill with the tongue: we commit real murders. And we are still to regard that as a small thing? I truly do not understand such consciences. (119)

Still, superiors are always superiors. And although they humiliated me personally and, on occasions, filled me with all kinds of doubts, they always allowed me to do what the Lord demanded. (128)

I will avoid sisters who grumble, and if they cannot be avoided, I will at least keep silent before them, thus letting them know how sorry I am to hear such things. (226)

I must do everything and act in all manners now as I would like to do and act at the hour of my death. (226)

I must not let myself become absorbed in the whirl of work, but take a break to look up to Heaven. (226)

I will thank the Lord Jesus for every humiliation and will pray specially for the person who has given me the chance to be humiliated. (243)

I feel certain that my mission will not come to an end upon my death, but will begin. (281)

I tried to explain to her that when we suffer much we have a great chance to show God that we love Him; but when we suffer little we have less occasion to show God our love; and when we do not suffer at all, our love is then neither great nor pure. (303)

Oh, how great a grace it is to have a spiritual director! One makes more rapid progress in virtue, sees the will of God more clearly, fulfills it more faithfully, and follows a road that is sure and free of dangers. The director knows how to avoid the rocks against which the soul could be shattered. (331)

Jesus answered that He would grant her that favor, not for her sake, but for the sake of my request. Now I understood how much we ought to pray for sinners, and especially for our wards. (350)

To comfort you, let Me tell you that there are souls living in the world who love Me dearly… Their number is very small. They are a defense or the world before the justice of the Heavenly Father and a means of obtaining mercy for the world. The love and sacrifice of these souls sustain the world in existence. (367)

We should derive two kinds of profit from Holy Confession:  1. We come to confession to be healed;  2. We come to be educated – like a small child, our soul has a constant need of education. (377)

You are a sweet grape in a chosen cluster; I want others to have a share in the juice that is flowing within you. (393)

I accept joy or suffering, praise or humiliation with the same disposition. I remember that one and the other are passing. (485)

Each battle valiantly fought brings me joy, peace, light, experience and courage for the future; honor and glory to God; and in the end, for me, a reward. (499)

Only love has meaning; it raises up our smallest actions into infinity. (502)

We will bear in mind that a soldier on the front line cannot hold out long without support from the rear forces that do not actually take part in the fighting but provide for all his needs; and that such is the role of prayer, and that therefore each one of us is to be distinguished by an apostolic spirit. (539)

When you reflect upon what I tell you in the depths of your heart, you profit more than if you had read many books. Oh, if souls would only want to listen to My voice when I am speaking in the depths of their hearts, they would reach the peak of holiness in a short time. (584)

Right away I said the Te Deum for this special grace of God; namely of learning how God treats those He intends to have close to himself. Thus, all sufferings are nothing in comparison with what awaits us in heaven. (596)

He has deigned to place these pillars of light along the path of my spiritual life. They light my way so that I do nog to astray or become delayed in my journey toward close union with the Lord. I have a great love for the Church, which educates souls and leads them to God. (749)

When the soul returns to its habitual form of life, it then sees that this life is all darkness and mist and dreamlike confusion, an infant’s swaddling clothes. (767)

My daughter, I am told that there is much simplicity in you, so why do you not tell Me about everything that concerns you, even the smallest details? Tell Me about everything, and know that this will give Me great joy. (921)

Know, my daughter, that the entire Holy Trinity finds Its special delight in you, because you live exclusively by the will of God. No sacrifice can compare with this. (955)

Oh, if only the suffering soul knew how it is loved by God, it would die of joy and excess of happiness! Some day, we will know the value of suffering, but then we will no longer be able to suffer. The present moment is ours. (963)

I took part in this retreat, as I very much desire to know God more deeply and to love Him more ardently, for I have understood that the greater the knowledge, the stronger the love. (974)

I felt today how greatly a certain dying soul desired prayers. I prayed until I felt she had died. Oh, dying souls are in such great need of prayer! O Jesus, inspire souls to pray often for the dying. (1015)

I made an hour of adoration in thanksgiving for the graces which had been granted me and for my illness. Illness also is a great grace. I have been ill for four months, but I do not recall having wasted so much as a minute of it. All has been for God and souls; I want to be faithful to Him everywhere. (1062)

The quintessence of love is sacrifice and suffering. Truth wears a crown of thorns. Prayer involves the intellect, the will, and the emotions. (1103)

Let the toiling and tired souls rejoice. (1127)

O Jesus, I see so much beauty scattered around me, beauty for which I give You constant thanks. But I see that some souls are like stone, always cold and unfeeling. Even miracles hardly move them. Their eyes are always fixed on their feet, and so they see nothing but themselves. (1284)

As I write these words, I hear the cry of Satan: “She’s writing everything, she’s writing everything, and because of this we are losing so much! Do not write about the goodness of God; He is just!” And howling with fury, he vanished. (1338)

O humdrum days, filled with darkness, I look upon you with a solemn and festive eye. How great and solemn is the time that gives us the chance to gather merits for eternal heaven!  I understand how the saints made use of it. (1373)

I have come to know that every soul would like to have divine comforts, but is by no means willing to forsake human comforts, whereas these two things cannot be reconciled. (1443)

Although I am feeling weak, and my nature is clamoring for rest, I feel the inspiration of grace telling me to take hold of myself and write, write for the comfort of souls, whom I love so much and with whom I will share all eternity. And I desire eternal life for them so ardently that that is why I use all my free moments, no matter how short, for writing in the way that Jesus wishes of me. (1471)

O truth, so often oppressed, you nearly always wear a crown of thorns! O Eternal Truth, support me that I may have the courage to speak the truth even if it would come about that I would pay for it with my life. (1482)

But understand that the strength by which you bear sufferings comes from frequent Communions. So approach this fountain of mercy often, to draw with the vessel of trust whatever you need. (1487)

My child, know that the greatest obstacles to holiness are discouragement and an exaggerated anxiety. These will deprive you of the ability to practice virtue. All temptations united together ought not disturb your interior peace, not even momentarily. Sensitiveness and discouragement are the fruits of self-love. You should not become discouraged, but strive to make My love reign in place of your self-love. (1488)

Secretary of My most profound mystery, know that yours is an exclusive intimacy with me. Your task is to write down everything that I make known to you about My mercy, for the benefit  those who by reading these things will be comforted in their souls and will have the courage to approach Me. I therefor want you to devote all your free moments to writing. (1693)

At the same instant, I received an interior answer from God that a thousand souls had received grace through the prayerful mediation I had offered to God. We do not know the number of souls that is ours to save through our prayers and sacrifices; therefore, let us always pray for sinners. (1783)